I have been meaning to post this for a while now.. I am entering a new phase in life. I have full time job now, that I am starting the 20th of this month. Its kind of scary because I will actually be doing what I have been studying to do for quite a while now. I will be a medical assistant at a women's clinic, an OB/GYN office. The people seem really nice and the office is really nice. I know I will do good, as always, and everyone keeps saying I will do fine, but its still scary to know its for real... hoping that I do things right, don't mess up and look stupid or look like I don't know what I'm doing. I don't want to look like I learned nothing in college. I am also studying to pass my CMA exam this coming Saturday. I will get a raise if I become certified, also I want to be certified, it seems silly to take the test and not pass after all I put into school. So it feels like alot of pressure.
I am also not sure I "want" to adjust to life as a full time worker!!! I am so used to the college scedule of classes and varied work times and being able to get up when I want (depending on the semester) that to me it seems so strict and rigid to get up EVERY morning at the same time and work till 5 or 6 every day. Sometimes I feel I am giving up alot, free afternoons, late mornings, etc. And maybe in a way I am but its not really that bad. During my externships it was tough at first but I got used to it, and this time because it is for real, its for real, but I also won't have to constantly be studying for a test or an assignment. The evenings and weekends will be mine, not schools. I will be SOOOO relieved once I take my CMA exam and pass. Its a 4 hour 300 question test over almost everything I have studied.
Tomorrow is my 2 year anniversary with Ryan. It doesn't seem like we've been married 2 years. In some ways, to me, it seems longer, while at the same time it seems like we were just getting married! So much has happened since then. I am glad I am married to such a wonderful man that loves me so much. I know he drives me crazy sometimes, but more than anything I would miss him so much if he was not in my life. My life has changed for the better with him in it. I feel like I have a partner in life, and no matter what happens, that as long as we have each things will be ok. All my life I longed for this person, that would understand me and that I could talk with and share my heart with, and in Ryan, I know completely that I have found that.
This year is sort of a year of change I think. As I start my new full-time job, Ryan and I will be both working. I have a new nephew, that is a big change for my sister, and my family :) My father is trying to work toward a new career. My mother and sister are working toward building a business of massage therapy. Hopefully, in the future, after working for a few years maybe Ryan and I can start a family of our own...
So... this is a new phase... of life...
